Maybe I'll write a very specific testimony, one that reveals the details.
For now, my testimony is brief;

Holy Spirit, You are welcome here,
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I was born, yay! I was put in an orphanage in Poland. The orphanage was called “house of little children” and there were Catholic nuns/sisters. The nuns matched a picture of me with the adoptive parents, that I have now, who came to visit the orphanage that day. I grew up in Connecticut, in a house with lots of rescue animals. We had a couple people in the family who were special needs. As a baby, I was baptized and raised to attend the Catholic Sunday school. I said in my head at a young age that I didn’t believe in God, or maybe, it was a thought that was planted in me from somewhere/something else. I grew up memorizing prayers, though, which were helpful while The Holy Spirit showed me that He existed. I was running for 6 hours straight one day, as an adult, after wanting to quit a partying-lifestyle. I ran 24 miles in one go and said, “that’s the last time…”. (As in, that’s the last time I’ll ever party ever again). During that 24 mile run (which I had never officially trained for, my average was only 1-2 miles) I prayed the serenity prayer, as if it were something to say in my head as I was running. I ALSO got on my knees and prayed, even in front of a church! I did not recognize what I was doing at the time but it is what leads me to believe that it was His will for me to quit the partying-lifestyle and to follow Him. 

I was idolizing myself and technology at that time, too. I believed that people were watching me through my technology at all times because I saw signs on my devices that led me to REALLY know that I was being watched. I was actually convicted of shoplifting through something that happened to the cell phone that only happens when you press a certain button, but ABSOLUTELY NO ONE PUSHED A BUTTON OR TOUCHED IT. This happened numerous times to the devices I have had- things on the screen changed without my input. Then, even reverted, as proof that what was just shown was not being controlled by me but someone or something else. 

I began to believe I had a computer in my brain because I started getting signs in my body and mind to behave certain ways, too. I was receiving thoughts from outside sources and I received information that was beyond my knowledge or awareness. I was told things that I couldn't have possibly ever known! I had no way of knowing (and had never even heard of some of these things before). These thoughts were actually showing me something tangible in the world. Some sort of fortune-telling, too. So I believed some lies in between. 

What rang true to me was a deep, deep inner sensation of really wanting to quit partying forever. I kept feeling sorrow (potentially a godly sorrow) that I was doing these things. I kept saying that I'd stop, especially because it made no sense for me to keep doing (regarding my health and finances, I recall). 

I did! (Definitely through our Father’s help) I quit partying and started trying to improve even more as a person. I was trying to follow the ideas and thoughts that I received in my head that seemed like they could actually be helpful or healthy to me. Some of it was seemingly prophetic in nature too, I later learned to shy away from potential fortune-telling, though, to be extra safe. 

After following my parent’s desires for me (to sell an expensive car that I had at the time) I was told, “pray” (through a thought given to me in my head). I prayed that night. 

I later woke up to a vision of our Lord Jesus Christ. I later experienced something in my body which was directly tied to that vision which led me to fully believe that there can be far more going on in reality that is not based on anything a human mind can explain through means of science and technology. 

On another occasion I was told, “The love of your life is in California” and I felt a warm hand on my chest (plus a feeling of a friend there) when it was said. I traversed out to California! I followed the idea for me and it was powerful, I really NEEDED to go, it's like I had to run there. I started to pray a lot at Catholic churches and I was going around attempting to share what I believed about God to other people. I was operating on a level that was unique to the one based in reality. I felt as though I was following His Spirit to everywhere that I needed to go. I was led to return to a life in NY. I believe that the love of my life has been our Father and Lord. I began reading His Word, The Holy Bible, and listening to individuals on the internet who shared information with me about what churches I should prefer attending. I began attending unique churches and learning about what some people said was based on the real truth. I studied His Holy Word on my own because it felt like the cleanest and safest way to be guided closer to Him, too. A few of the individuals on the internet inspired me to really dive deep into reading The Holy Bible. 

I continued living in the push that I received, to go out and share what I have learned. I am now sharing what I have learned with strangers and attempting to remain in contact with them even after the fact. I practice in giving His word directly to people, including the fullness of His Holy Bible directly into people's hands to read. This is occurring especially while I am in training as a disciple of our Lord Jesus Christ. 

By the way, I have in recent times, experienced my phone opening The Holy Bible app on me now, too.

Renata Andzelika Pastuszak